So after
@Aiko.Octo singlehandedly destroyed team present and future, I started writing my own in depth argument for future... only to realize I'm a fraud and am secretly team present, send help. Oh and this is a very personal, heavy ramble, be warned.
I'm going deep very quickly but to be honest I've often found the past to be more of a burden than anything. Humanity has such a rich culture and history that it's kind of daunting to take in just how small we really are. In history, our lifespans feel so short, like we never truly have enough time to do it all. It also feels like a lot to live up to, most of us have such long and complex legacies inherited from our families and societies that it's hard to wrap my head around. I honestly wish I could start from a clean slate, without all this baggage. Though I also have a complex relationship with that myself.
The past is also a lot of lessons to learn, almost too many of them to possibly remember them all. We have so much history, and with every generation that passes, we're expected to learn more and more, despite all of it being... well, in the past. And I say that as someone that's been fascinated with history, but I'm getting more and more reservations on it as time goes on.
This is extremely cliché, but if we keep looking backwards, will we ever be able to move on from the past? Will there ever be a generation that won't be burdened by the knowledge of the world wars? Of all this suffering? Not to mention some of the past becomes lost, or idealized, compared to the truth. We can't preserve all of history, it feels almost futile to try, and is there much of a point now, with all the challenges that await us?
History just feels like a mountain to live up to more than anything, and it makes any of my achievements feel kind of meaningless, compared to the weight of it. I wish we could look to the future, live now, and not be as tethered to the past. I agree that there are important lessons to take from it, but I've always felt we were held back by our history, in a way.
Future's not off the hook here either. All my life I've always strived and cared for long term goals but honestly... I don't know if that's true happiness. I've always had the bad habit of planning too far ahead, of projecting far beyond anything realistic, and because of that, I never felt like I achieved anything meaningful, because it was always just a single step on a massive staircase, where the goal kept shifting further, and further.
I do care a lot about the future, but there comes a point where you care so much about the future you start neglecting yourself. I've always admired people who were able to dedicate their lives to making a better world because it takes a lot of conviction to dedicate your life to a cause that you may not see the results of.
Even in personal life, you must give up on so many 'meaningless' short term goals to instead work on long term time investments, that will only pay off in the future... and then what? I'll be 40 and I'll already feel like I reached the peak of my life, is there a point to it?
And I won't lie, the future seems kinda screwed people. We got climate change knocking at our door, and the chances of humanity going through it without any cataclysmic changes seems low, or at least very uncertain. Every time I look forward, I can't help but see this wall approaching, and it sucks. I wish it could be prevented, but the odds simply aren't in our favor. It's hard, thinking about our futures this way, planning ahead... when it could all be for nothing.
So screw this, I think living is about the present. Pearl's right, life's too short to spend it on looking at the big picture, looking too far forward, or focusing on what's already done. Our lives may seem meaningless in the grand scheme of things, but they only are if we keep comparing them to our history, past and future. I think what really matters at the end of the day is being happy in the moment, living while you can, because you never know if that will last. Go out, meet people, be unreasonable, take risks, and then when you look back on it all, you could say you've lived life to the fullest.
Sorry for the ramble, I think it's a very interesting topic, and there was a lot of heavy stuff I wanted to get off my mind.
Now whether I actually pick team present to stay true to myself or pick team future to play with friends remains to be seen lol