crushes :(

[How•SweeT!]

What’s the worst way a crush has broke your heart :(

 

[Cephalobro]

My first crush told me she was my girlfriend, and then a year later, she said we were just friends. Then when I was in high school, I learned she had moved away, I was naive at the time, holding on to false hope. That was the first of the high school depressions I had, won't tell of the other depressions I had during high school because they would go off-topic.

 

[Mp3]

Never had a boyfriend :;(
but I do crush

 

[How•SweeT!]

oooo
I would ask who it is bit that seems private lol
I hope you get him :)

 

[Mx_Diva]

I woke up with $200+ missing from my bank account only to find out my ex-fiance charged my account to pay for stuff for their friends and ghost me from it all. Luckily I got the funds reinstated.

 

[How•SweeT!]

Damn. she/he sounds meaaaaan

 

[DzNutsKong]

this one's pretty good

 

[solz]

Broken heart=Getting no kills with main #

 

[How•SweeT!]

ouch. No irl?

 

[sevenleaf]

eh, maybe there's kernels of wisdom y'all can take from my story

february of my first year of college my long-distance high school sweetheart (read: we were long-distance before college, we weren't high school classmates who became long-distance from college) broke up with me a week after we finally met in person. very amicable, no arguments, she just felt the spark was gone. even though it was probably one of the 'best' kinds of breakup you could have, second only to mutual feelings of the spark being gone, it took months (and even worse things happening in my life) to really move on from the heartbreak. like, y'all, i had plans of proposing to this woman after college, and the only reason i was waiting that long was because a previous relationship made me uneasy about moving too fast

i think what made it harder to deal with though was that i felt i couldn't bring it up with some of my closest friends, because we were in a small discord server with one member who... always kinda had it out for my ex. for no good reason. for context, these friends, my ex, and i (and a bunch of other folks i knew online at the time) were the people i knew through blogging about the sims. and the friend in question was always critical of everything my ex posted to her blog. it was weird. actually, this person was like that about a lot of other users my age, too (as someone... several years older than us). except for me. mostly. anyway, i didn't bring up the breakup with that friend group for a veeery long time because i really wasn't interested in what that friend would have to say about it.

(said 'friend' is an ex-friend now, don't worry)

so i mostly brought it up with people completely removed from the situation, when i brought it up at all, that is. and i feel like a lot of people just, like... can't wrap their heads around somebody not hating their ex. like, there were times i had to, mid-heartbreak, defend her against people who didn't know her because the assumption was always that it was a conflict they had to pick a side in, and it really wasn't that at all! and sometimes people straight up wouldn't believe me when i said that that wasn't the case!

but that was almost 6 years ago at this point (...how has it been that long). i've moved on, and honestly, reflecting on it, we probably wouldn't have lasted long as an adult couple regardless. my only regret, really, is that i got too deep into my feelings to maintain a friendship with her. anyway, now i'm chasing after one of my friends from college, but my hopeless romantic antics keep getting intercepted by boring adult things...

 

[RetroShark]

My first crush actually said yes to me! (We went on our first date 2 DAYS AGO!!! (like… we’ve never dated anyone)

 

[Cephalobro]

I did have a second crush during high school and had a relationship with her, but that was very short-lived, unfortunately, because I was pressured to focus on my school work.

I couldn't even initiate a third relationship with another girl I met during high school as she had gotten major problems in her personal life at the time.

 

[BeckyXP]

She started dating someone else.
He was a mf jerk towards me and everyone.
And he didn't even exist.

 

[jeffthesquid]

I never had a romantic crush but I think I'm in love with my bike. Yes, it's unique and everyday I wake up I think about my bike and where I'm going to go. Why I even have dreams about my bike and it's all because I built the bike myself.

 

[Lyy]

What’s the worst way a crush has broke your heart :(

2 days after me and my crush kissed he revealed to me that he was gay, I was 13 and I didn't know how to react and I only said "ok"

 

[sevenleaf]

2 days after me and my crush kissed he revealed to me that he was gay, I was 13 and I didn't know how to react and I only said "ok"

…well, he trusted you with that knowledge! that’s something!

is this a far enough removed situation to laugh react because this is so quintessentially Relatably Awkward Middle School Memory but i don’t want to rub salt in any wounds or have it seem like i’m laughing at you

 

[Lyy]

…well, he trusted you with that knowledge! that’s something!

is this a far enough removed situation to laugh react because this is so quintessentially Relatably Awkward Middle School Memory but i don’t want to rub salt in any wounds or have it seem like i’m laughing at you

At least I wasn't too much hurt,I moved on quickly and nowdays when I think about that awkward situation I laugh

 

[How•SweeT!]

2 days after me and my crush kissed he revealed to me that he was gay, I was 13 and I didn't know how to react and I only said "ok"

oh my-

 

[Aiko.Octo]

The crush I had that's the most memorable to me was the one that I didn't realize was a crush until I was much older because I grew up in such a sheltered/homophobic environment that I literally didn't have words or even concepts for my feelings. In retrospect it must have been sooo glaringly obvious to everyone else in our circle that I am kind of relieved I am not in contact with any of those people anymore, lol. I was completely out of my mind over this girl; it was so bad I barely even want to get into it. I remember I taught myself college-level calculus just so that I could help tutor her in a class she was struggling in (I am pretty sure this only made her more annoyed with me but she passed the class so). I was completely obsessed with making her happy. Because I didn't interpret my feelings as romantic (and possibly because even if I had I was very prone to compersion, something else I didn't have a word/concept for until later) I was happy to set her up with her crush via rigged teambuilding workshops I was running and then really excited to hear every detail of how that relationship progressed and was as elated as if I was a part of it. Life happened/our interests diverged and we eventually drifted so it was long after we mostly stopped talking when one day It Finally Hit Me. And in the course of one night it was like I re-lived all of my memories from a new perspective and then had my heart break all at once. It still felt so raw and new even though it was years since we last spoke. I moved past it but I'm glad I at least understand now what that all was because man. I was just emotionally disintegrating from overwhelm.

anyway for reference here's a real actual extremely descriptive line from my diary during that time:

 

[sevenleaf]

(and possibly because even if I had I was very prone to compersion, something else I didn't have a word/concept for until later)

.....so today i learned a new word that describes some feelings i've had in the (not-so-distant) past,