Awwwwwwwww, I know that feel well. Sometimes I feel like that player everyone complains about. The player that always brings my team down........... But here's the thing, in order to improve you just gotta keep going. You may feel like the weight of the team right now, but that's only temporary! You'll improve, learn how to work with your team, and mostly importantly, have more fun! If you're looking for a clan, take a look in the forums and you'll find one in no time! :D