くコ:彡 - ROXY
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I don't know if this is the right place to post something like this, so I'm sorry in advance. Also there may some strong language, so sorry for that too...
I had no clue how many people I know were S or S+ and here I am, still lagging behind despite the fact that I got the game a week after launch. The reason is because work and now school, but when I am free… I get anxious to play again.
At some point last year after the major update, I joined a clan. By that time I was only B-, struggling to get out of there. before clans were a thing, I knew the leader via a random group chat from Squidboards, then a few weeks later, I saw that he had a tag on his name so soon, clans started popping up, like in any online based games and a part of me wanted to grow with the community. When it comes to gaming, I’ve always come up on the short end, I want to move away from casual and be competitive, I want to be good at something for once in my life and working in a team to achieve the same goal… so I asked to join that clan
… that’s when everything went to s***…
After doing my try out and interview (yeah, they were really into it) I was accepted into the group and the first thing hit me, I was badly under level. when I joined I was B-, everyone else were S and even S+, and to join you have to at least be A, so I feel like I weaseled my way into the group. They offered to help me level up, but I felt like I was just a burden for them; switching to alt account and no using their mains because it wasn’t unlocked yet. All was fine until I started showing the side of me I am not proud of: my temper. I have a very hard time controlling my angry and I started groaning and yelling and lashing out at people, thankfully, they were able to brush my hissy fits but deep down, it makes me paranoid that they don’t want me in the group. Since I was B- and everyone’s alt were A or S, we ended up facing a lot of S and S+ squads and clan, so that was effecting my rank. After hours of bitching and playing, I finally hit A-, finally was about to move up, but at the same time, my rank was always in danger. One night, one of my teammates told me about a way to keep my rank from dropping and even gave me the instructions to do so…
Today, that is known as Save Scumming… I will admit that I used to save scum for a while, but it was seriously started getting annoying to go into my Wii U save data every single time to update the file, so I stopped, but that’s not what killed it for me though.
One thing that sucks about being an adult is to work. I worked at a retail store for all of last year and usually I would come home exhausted to even play, so I would end up missing out on playing and squading with my clan. Through out the mouths, the Skype group chat was growing kind of dead, except for the usual random talk and asking for squads at 6am (one member was from Spain) and I was getting nervous; are we going to disband? I also would check Team Speak (before Discord was a thing) but sometimes no one was online, sometimes they would be online on the Wii U but most of the time, there was no private rooms open. Despite not being able to play as often with them, I was happy for my team, I really felt like was part of something, and it killed me that I didn’t have the time or energy to practice with them. When 2015 was about to end, I made the choice to got back to school, but this time, I am dorming upstate, so guess what, I would have more free time to finally play Splatoon again! I even told the chat that I now have time for them, but it remained silent… then it was 2016, January, and the day came to pack up and go to school… and then it happened…
On the third day of me staying in the dorm (trying not to let homesickness kill me) I get a message from the clan leader; whenever you get a message that begins with “we need to talk”, you know your anxiety will flare up. It was what I feared, the team felt that I wasn’t putting in my work for the clan and not practicing (even thought I told them I was working) and viewed me as the weakest link, so they had to let me go. I was heart broken, I thought they were my friends and they were so quick to ditch me like this and even after I told them I was sorry and now I’m free to play… I felt betrayed… After that, I was kicked out of the chatroom, I contacted one of the members (the one that told me about save scumming) and asked her what the rest thought about this; she only told me that they didn’t what what was going on.
Since that day, I haven’t been able to play again like I wanted to, I felt so depressed that I couldn’t play ranked or turf matches without thinking of the betrayal. On the rare cases that I can play, I felt my anger exploding more (I even cracked my gamepad screen) and I can’t think straight. One of my friends here suggested I try out for another team, to help me get better and forget the old group. I started interacting with a Facebook group and they started posting try out for their clans. It gets hard from this point on.
First I tried out for “TI_” (Titan Ink), but I got rejected, the guy didn’t tell me why until I straight up asked him and he basically told me that I screwed so badly and I missed any opportunities during rainmaker to win, but I fail. next I tried from for a new all-girl clan named “ca” (Cuttle’s Angels), but I didn’t get in because of limited spacing (which begs the question WHY i didn’t get a spot), then “INK”, but I was rejected, but they thought I was pretty good with my Duel Squelcher. I wanted to try out for [C-] but you have to be S+ to even try out, then I applied for “SND” (Squids Next Door) but I didn’t get word back until months later (BTW, rejected). this was soul crushing to me, I felt so useless that I couldn’t support a team at all, then I made the sad attempt to beg for another chance to join the old again, but I didn’t want to come off as more broken than I already am. I got word from my friend that his old clan “SHL” (Shoals) disbanded and some of the remaining member regrouped to be “PSR” (Prism Shore) and he let me in, even though then leader was having his doubt about having me join without doing a try out. So, you’d think that’s where the stupid story ends, right? Well, no, it gets worst.
After some time being with “PSR”, I started seeing the ugly side of competitive players, mainly from the leader. He’s S+ 99, and he always looked down on us, thinking we’re just a bunch of jokers and just basically call us ****ty; it even showed when we were playing in private battles. After storing out some **** with him, our clan enter an online tournament; I was excited and nervous but I wanted to do it. We were doing pretty well until we hit the quarter finals, where we faced off against team Chimera, then we had our a**es handed to us. Unknown to me, that round was recorded by Chimera on YouTube. I looked through the comments, all was normal, like “awesome vid” or “ you killed it!” and stuff like that, but then I saw one comment that killed me, “their first mistake was having a A+ rank in this tournament”… I was the only person on the team that wasn’t S or S+. I made the dumb mistake and replied back, defending myself, but then I started seeing comments say “oh, they were save scumming” (There were some comments saying “rank means nothing” but it wasn’t helping my case). I started replying back that I don’t save scum, but then I realized something, the ones calling me out as a cheater were from my ex-clan; they were talking s*** about me. I told them that I don’t save scum anymore, but they never replied back… I wanted to cry that night. After that, I contacted one of them on skype, and the mood felt so strange, I was like I was taking to an employee of some business. I confronted her about the comments I was getting from those guys, they were targeting me as a cheater.
It was then I was was told why I was kicked out; apparently they NOW have a very strict NO CHEATING policy and since they knew I used to save scum, and the fact I was inactive, they found their reason to get rid of me, but they were the ones who told me about save scumming. See, save scumming for rank is bad, but save scumming for rolls is A-OK! and when I told her that she taught be about rank saving, she was so quick to deny that she showed me how to scum from re-rolls, not ranks and that she thought I knew that reason for my banning. That’s were I called bullshit, they set me up for this crap and I had to pay for it. Since then, I can’t trust anyone in a clan, even now, when I see people on Tumblr, where I'm more frequent now, posting their squid kid and showing their S and S+ ranks, I just see an enemy and if they are in a clan, I see them as a threat… and I want to see them lose…
At the time of this post, I am currently A+ 42, but since all this drama, I get anxious to play any ranked battles because I start to remember that clan and any clan tags I see online, they become my target, further fueling my anger problem and further making me play worse and worse... And on top of that, PSR disbanded too so I'm alone again. I know what you’re thinking, “THIS IS STUPID, STOP WHINING ABOUT A F***ING GAME, YOU DUMB S***” but it’s not so much the game that bothers me… it’s people in general. I feel like like I’m lagging behind everyone I know. almost everyone I’ve interacted with are already S ranks and some even hitting S+, and here I am… to scared and angry to move up…
I guess I can’t be good at anything, can I…
I had no clue how many people I know were S or S+ and here I am, still lagging behind despite the fact that I got the game a week after launch. The reason is because work and now school, but when I am free… I get anxious to play again.
At some point last year after the major update, I joined a clan. By that time I was only B-, struggling to get out of there. before clans were a thing, I knew the leader via a random group chat from Squidboards, then a few weeks later, I saw that he had a tag on his name so soon, clans started popping up, like in any online based games and a part of me wanted to grow with the community. When it comes to gaming, I’ve always come up on the short end, I want to move away from casual and be competitive, I want to be good at something for once in my life and working in a team to achieve the same goal… so I asked to join that clan
… that’s when everything went to s***…
After doing my try out and interview (yeah, they were really into it) I was accepted into the group and the first thing hit me, I was badly under level. when I joined I was B-, everyone else were S and even S+, and to join you have to at least be A, so I feel like I weaseled my way into the group. They offered to help me level up, but I felt like I was just a burden for them; switching to alt account and no using their mains because it wasn’t unlocked yet. All was fine until I started showing the side of me I am not proud of: my temper. I have a very hard time controlling my angry and I started groaning and yelling and lashing out at people, thankfully, they were able to brush my hissy fits but deep down, it makes me paranoid that they don’t want me in the group. Since I was B- and everyone’s alt were A or S, we ended up facing a lot of S and S+ squads and clan, so that was effecting my rank. After hours of bitching and playing, I finally hit A-, finally was about to move up, but at the same time, my rank was always in danger. One night, one of my teammates told me about a way to keep my rank from dropping and even gave me the instructions to do so…
Today, that is known as Save Scumming… I will admit that I used to save scum for a while, but it was seriously started getting annoying to go into my Wii U save data every single time to update the file, so I stopped, but that’s not what killed it for me though.
One thing that sucks about being an adult is to work. I worked at a retail store for all of last year and usually I would come home exhausted to even play, so I would end up missing out on playing and squading with my clan. Through out the mouths, the Skype group chat was growing kind of dead, except for the usual random talk and asking for squads at 6am (one member was from Spain) and I was getting nervous; are we going to disband? I also would check Team Speak (before Discord was a thing) but sometimes no one was online, sometimes they would be online on the Wii U but most of the time, there was no private rooms open. Despite not being able to play as often with them, I was happy for my team, I really felt like was part of something, and it killed me that I didn’t have the time or energy to practice with them. When 2015 was about to end, I made the choice to got back to school, but this time, I am dorming upstate, so guess what, I would have more free time to finally play Splatoon again! I even told the chat that I now have time for them, but it remained silent… then it was 2016, January, and the day came to pack up and go to school… and then it happened…
On the third day of me staying in the dorm (trying not to let homesickness kill me) I get a message from the clan leader; whenever you get a message that begins with “we need to talk”, you know your anxiety will flare up. It was what I feared, the team felt that I wasn’t putting in my work for the clan and not practicing (even thought I told them I was working) and viewed me as the weakest link, so they had to let me go. I was heart broken, I thought they were my friends and they were so quick to ditch me like this and even after I told them I was sorry and now I’m free to play… I felt betrayed… After that, I was kicked out of the chatroom, I contacted one of the members (the one that told me about save scumming) and asked her what the rest thought about this; she only told me that they didn’t what what was going on.
Since that day, I haven’t been able to play again like I wanted to, I felt so depressed that I couldn’t play ranked or turf matches without thinking of the betrayal. On the rare cases that I can play, I felt my anger exploding more (I even cracked my gamepad screen) and I can’t think straight. One of my friends here suggested I try out for another team, to help me get better and forget the old group. I started interacting with a Facebook group and they started posting try out for their clans. It gets hard from this point on.
First I tried out for “TI_” (Titan Ink), but I got rejected, the guy didn’t tell me why until I straight up asked him and he basically told me that I screwed so badly and I missed any opportunities during rainmaker to win, but I fail. next I tried from for a new all-girl clan named “ca” (Cuttle’s Angels), but I didn’t get in because of limited spacing (which begs the question WHY i didn’t get a spot), then “INK”, but I was rejected, but they thought I was pretty good with my Duel Squelcher. I wanted to try out for [C-] but you have to be S+ to even try out, then I applied for “SND” (Squids Next Door) but I didn’t get word back until months later (BTW, rejected). this was soul crushing to me, I felt so useless that I couldn’t support a team at all, then I made the sad attempt to beg for another chance to join the old again, but I didn’t want to come off as more broken than I already am. I got word from my friend that his old clan “SHL” (Shoals) disbanded and some of the remaining member regrouped to be “PSR” (Prism Shore) and he let me in, even though then leader was having his doubt about having me join without doing a try out. So, you’d think that’s where the stupid story ends, right? Well, no, it gets worst.
After some time being with “PSR”, I started seeing the ugly side of competitive players, mainly from the leader. He’s S+ 99, and he always looked down on us, thinking we’re just a bunch of jokers and just basically call us ****ty; it even showed when we were playing in private battles. After storing out some **** with him, our clan enter an online tournament; I was excited and nervous but I wanted to do it. We were doing pretty well until we hit the quarter finals, where we faced off against team Chimera, then we had our a**es handed to us. Unknown to me, that round was recorded by Chimera on YouTube. I looked through the comments, all was normal, like “awesome vid” or “ you killed it!” and stuff like that, but then I saw one comment that killed me, “their first mistake was having a A+ rank in this tournament”… I was the only person on the team that wasn’t S or S+. I made the dumb mistake and replied back, defending myself, but then I started seeing comments say “oh, they were save scumming” (There were some comments saying “rank means nothing” but it wasn’t helping my case). I started replying back that I don’t save scum, but then I realized something, the ones calling me out as a cheater were from my ex-clan; they were talking s*** about me. I told them that I don’t save scum anymore, but they never replied back… I wanted to cry that night. After that, I contacted one of them on skype, and the mood felt so strange, I was like I was taking to an employee of some business. I confronted her about the comments I was getting from those guys, they were targeting me as a cheater.
It was then I was was told why I was kicked out; apparently they NOW have a very strict NO CHEATING policy and since they knew I used to save scum, and the fact I was inactive, they found their reason to get rid of me, but they were the ones who told me about save scumming. See, save scumming for rank is bad, but save scumming for rolls is A-OK! and when I told her that she taught be about rank saving, she was so quick to deny that she showed me how to scum from re-rolls, not ranks and that she thought I knew that reason for my banning. That’s were I called bullshit, they set me up for this crap and I had to pay for it. Since then, I can’t trust anyone in a clan, even now, when I see people on Tumblr, where I'm more frequent now, posting their squid kid and showing their S and S+ ranks, I just see an enemy and if they are in a clan, I see them as a threat… and I want to see them lose…
At the time of this post, I am currently A+ 42, but since all this drama, I get anxious to play any ranked battles because I start to remember that clan and any clan tags I see online, they become my target, further fueling my anger problem and further making me play worse and worse... And on top of that, PSR disbanded too so I'm alone again. I know what you’re thinking, “THIS IS STUPID, STOP WHINING ABOUT A F***ING GAME, YOU DUMB S***” but it’s not so much the game that bothers me… it’s people in general. I feel like like I’m lagging behind everyone I know. almost everyone I’ve interacted with are already S ranks and some even hitting S+, and here I am… to scared and angry to move up…
I guess I can’t be good at anything, can I…
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