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Actually, being S+ doesn't mean very much at all in the grand acheme of things. Most top players perform at a level above S+99 and easily destroy solo queue. Hitzel isn't even S+99 and does so as well, but that's not really what this is about. Yeah, everywhere I go I see people saying things like "just use X weapon and get S+99 ez pz" but even so my highest is S+60, even trying my damn hardest. Even then there are S rank players who have very valid opinions and ideas that are given room to speak in competitive discussion.How so, then I will have something good to my name. Being S+ is the only way to prove yourself as a player. Being an S rank dynamo is no different than being a C dynamo. If little kids do it without breaking a sweat why can't I do it too? You're either part of the best or you're with the rest.
What motivates you anyway? You seem to have it all perfect, got your own Reddit, good rank, overall one of those people who I want to dislike for some reason...
Frankly though, the only one you need to prove yourself to is you. I'm driven by that same want for glory, to be the best or at least notable. I want to be seen as someone to look up to as a player, but there's more to that than just playong better than people for one thing, and only focusing on that goal and getting mad when you don't reach your perception of "good enough" is a path to ruin that I have walked so many times.
You want to talk to me about giving up or being angry at how good you aren't? I have scars from self inflicted wounds from my perceived failures, not just squid game but many things before. You can't go forward if you break your legs at every misstep.
"You seem to have it all perfect", this bothers me. It bothers me to the point that I am offended and I'll tell you why. I worked my *** off to get where I am, where I am as player not even being that impressive compared to quite a lot of people I associate with. I forced myself to change to strive for what I wanted, I became better as a user and player and in ways person, to become a worthy member of the staff on reddit\discord and hours and hours of work to become good at Splatoon with many more ahead yet. What gets me most is all of the emotional and even physical damaged I have suffered and also brought upon myself to get this far and you're going to tell me so sinply that "I have it perfect" when I have suffered as much as I have to get here.
But things are going well for me, overall. You ask what motivates me when if things are so perfect, but it's making things "perfect" that is my motivation. I forsee myself as a community leader in the future of squidgame, because I have worked very hard for months to become what so, and will continue to work towards as time progresses. This motivates me. I see myself as a competitive player now and in the future. This also motivates me. You think I "have it all" and firstly I disagree which is one motivation, and secondly keeping what I do have is another. If I stopped trying, or didn't at least try a little, I wouldn't have what I do and I wouldn't deserve it either.
This mentality, these feelings, this resentment for what you don't have and the anger at how good you aren't. All things I have been dealing with, have dealt with very recently, and will continue to deal with as time moves on because I'm a human and I'm not perfect. I have to keep going though or I won't ever make it. I have my team to play for, I have my friends to play with. I have my position as staff to consider, and as both staffand a member of the Splatoon community I want to make a positive difference in how things are. These are reasons I have refused to give up, even when I kept telling myself I wanted to and that it woukd be easier. I keep telling myself "change for the better is impossible" but I'm still here struggling to keep moving forward.
With the combined weight of a cause I believe is genuine, friends to support me, and a legitimate enjoyment of the game, I will not be stopped and that's why I am where I am.