Message to Anyone.

[Slushious]

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I'm glad I have friends. I'm glad you guys (apparently) see me as nonthreatening. Couple of things, though...

It's really hard to be your wingman via internet, bro. All I can say is 1: don't ask female friends to let you know if they have any "cute geek girls in their 20's" that they know who might be looking for love (for that matter, try not advertising that you're looking for specifically cute young geek girls, it's a little creepy - you're my age). 2: maybe tone down retweeting all the porn stars you follow and every waifu butt render that crosses your feed and peppering those with how forever alone you are. Just a suggestion =/

And you. We've been friends for almost a decade. I'm real proud of how far you've brought yourself. I'm still cheering for you. But seriously? I'm pretty sure at this point she's straight up blowing you off.

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Dear "Community":

Being reminded at every turn that my sort don't count, should never be included and are in fact some kind of sleeper agents for the Damn Dirty Str8s (TM) doesn't encourage any sort of support for you, and even less sympathy these days. Please stop.

 

[Sgt. Puffling]

You know, I think I finally get it. Leaving all my conversations, trying to avoid all interactions with me, all of that. I think I finally get it now. You claim you don't hate me, but you sure are acting like you do. I don't know why I keep trying to be friends with you at all, because it's never going to happen and I should've just known to give up on myself earlier. Needless to say you'll probably never have to deal with me again now, so I hope you're satisfied. But don't expect for me to attempt to interact with you for a while, or really, ever again.

 

[Achamo]

Hmm. You're a great friend. ♪
Even though you say it's alright, I want to show just how much I appreciate you. ♪

 

[Chancellor Woomy]

You know, the fact that you said such immature and horrible things about me on that site just amuses me, especially because that argument we had was months and months ago.

You really must have nothing better to do with your life, then try and pick fights and accuse me of being, to put it in less colorful terms, an attention-seeker, along with a slew of other terrible names. I find that to be terribly pathetic, and I have no synpathy for you and your bullying. Just leave my friend and I alone already and get your own life.

 

[Joasa]

Honestly... you're suck a jerk. To everyone on here. Honestly. I know you didn't end up getting your way, but get over it. Maybe it is the reason you seem to have this need to put everyone down and insult anything that anyone posts, maybe it isn't. But I'm getting really annoyed at your constant need to fuel your superiority complex and put everyone around you down, including me, with your mocking of everything I and others say and do. Your arrogance is something I'm suck of and I'm sure that others here are sick of it too. But if anyone ever dare challenge you, you'll just pull your stupid manipulative mind games and make us all feel like idiots and inferior to you. You just think you're smarter and better than all of us here, don't you...?

Well you're not. You're just like everyone else so stop thinking you're so much better than the rest of us. It's rude and annoying and it makes me hate you more than I already do.

 

[Shard]

Can you just drop it for one second? I know you still like me but I'm not the same back. I broke up with you for a reason, one week was never enough time to end up liking each other at all, and if you could just see that... Just I don't like you that way anymore, honestly I don't think I ever did like you that way, and I just want to be friends now, nothing more. That second chance you want isn't happening ever. I just don't want to be with you like that anymore. And that day when I told you and I eventually blocked you, why did you bring someone else into this to try to get me to unblock you? I knew you needed space, I told you that, but you were still so desperate and I don't understand why. I think the only positive thing out of this is that you actually apologised eventually, so there's that. Also I'm with someone else now that actually cares about me, so don't even try.

 

[mercenariez]

I'm technically alive now but you killed me that summer.

I wish you knew how much what you did affected me mentally. I used to see the world as full of hope and colours, and after you rejected me the way you did it's been abysmal grey ever since.

I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and have to take a ****load of medications just to function like a normal human being now. I have to see a psychologist because only a professional can convince me not to hang myself.

I'm a pessimist now because of you. I used to think "oh this person probably thinks I'm attractive!" Now I know I've been deluded all this time and all the girls I like think I'm an ugly ****.

I don't trust anyone and always think they have hidden intentions whenever they are nice to me now.

I can't message you about this because we all have to put up a facade that we're strong on social media, and I don't want you to have the satisfaction of going "ah I knew he was going to be a loser in the end." I so badly want to succeed in life just to prove you wrong. I want you to regret rejecting me, regret thinking that this guy isn't going anywhere.

But the harder I try the harder I fail.

Ironically after being rejected by you my standards haven't gone lower, they've gone up. To the point where no girl is good enough for me. To the point where I no longer see genuine beauty, only what's on the outside. I want to get a girlfriend so much more beautiful than you so that my pride fixes itself after you crumbled it.

I hate seeing you happy. I hate seeing your life go all peachy perfect and that it doesn't matter if I'm not in your life; like I am easily replaceable. You probably just get good jobs cuz of your looks. You couldn't even tell when I messaged you in Spanish because you replied in French you dumb b****. Yet you go to the best schools and get the best jobs. Life makes so much sense doesn't it?

The worst part is secretly I still want you. My doctors tell me to imagine happy things and the first thing I always imagine is you by my side, together.

Why, oh why didn't you like me? Why was I born this way?

 

[Dessgeega]

I'm technically alive now but you killed me that summer.

I wish you knew how much what you did affected me mentally. I used to see the world as full of hope and colours, and after you rejected me the way you did it's been abysmal grey ever since.

I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and have to take a ****load of medications just to function like a normal human being now. I have to see a psychologist because only a professional can convince me not to hang myself.

I'm a pessimist now because of you. I used to think "oh this person probably thinks I'm attractive!" Now I know I've been deluded all this time and all the girls I like think I'm an ugly ****.

I don't trust anyone and always think they have hidden intentions whenever they are nice to me now.

I can't message you about this because we all have to put up a facade that we're strong on social media, and I don't want you to have the satisfaction of going "ah I knew he was going to be a loser in the end." I so badly want to succeed in life just to prove you wrong. I want you to regret rejecting me, regret thinking that this guy isn't going anywhere.

But the harder I try the harder I fail.

Ironically after being rejected by you my standards haven't gone lower, they've gone up. To the point where no girl is good enough for me. To the point where I no longer see genuine beauty, only what's on the outside. I want to get a girlfriend so much more beautiful than you so that my pride fixes itself after you crumbled it.

I hate seeing you happy. I hate seeing your life go all peachy perfect and that it doesn't matter if I'm not in your life; like I am easily replaceable. You probably just get good jobs cuz of your looks. You couldn't even tell when I messaged you in Spanish because you replied in French you dumb b****. Yet you go to the best schools and get the best jobs. Life makes so much sense doesn't it?

The worst part is secretly I still want you. My doctors tell me to imagine happy things and the first thing I always imagine is you by my side, together.

Why, oh why didn't you like me? Why was I born this way?

...Yikes. I realize this thread is for stating your mind and getting things off your chest, but that is some really scary dialogue. I've heard near-identical language from convicted rapists and killers. Keep up on your therapy and don't do anything rash, okay?

 

[Sgt. Puffling]

I'm technically alive now but you killed me that summer.

I wish you knew how much what you did affected me mentally. I used to see the world as full of hope and colours, and after you rejected me the way you did it's been abysmal grey ever since.

I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and have to take a ****load of medications just to function like a normal human being now. I have to see a psychologist because only a professional can convince me not to hang myself.

I'm a pessimist now because of you. I used to think "oh this person probably thinks I'm attractive!" Now I know I've been deluded all this time and all the girls I like think I'm an ugly ****.

I don't trust anyone and always think they have hidden intentions whenever they are nice to me now.

I can't message you about this because we all have to put up a facade that we're strong on social media, and I don't want you to have the satisfaction of going "ah I knew he was going to be a loser in the end." I so badly want to succeed in life just to prove you wrong. I want you to regret rejecting me, regret thinking that this guy isn't going anywhere.

But the harder I try the harder I fail.

Ironically after being rejected by you my standards haven't gone lower, they've gone up. To the point where no girl is good enough for me. To the point where I no longer see genuine beauty, only what's on the outside. I want to get a girlfriend so much more beautiful than you so that my pride fixes itself after you crumbled it.

I hate seeing you happy. I hate seeing your life go all peachy perfect and that it doesn't matter if I'm not in your life; like I am easily replaceable. You probably just get good jobs cuz of your looks. You couldn't even tell when I messaged you in Spanish because you replied in French you dumb b****. Yet you go to the best schools and get the best jobs. Life makes so much sense doesn't it?

The worst part is secretly I still want you. My doctors tell me to imagine happy things and the first thing I always imagine is you by my side, together.

Why, oh why didn't you like me? Why was I born this way?

This hits really close to home, actually...

I know exactly how damaging scenarios like this can really be... I wish you the best.

 

[Laseraxis7]

I wish I could help you, I really do. But even though I pray for your wellfare, you don't seem to get any better (I could be wrong though). But in all honesty, I look forward to your recovery en every aspect of life, even if you don't trust me well enough.

 

[Ghiraham-Sandwich]

i miss you so much!!! i really really can't wait to see you!

you're so perfect and sweet, i'm so glad i met you! aaa i'm so excited

ヽ(〃＾▽＾〃)ﾉ

 

[mercenariez]

...Yikes. I realize this thread is for stating your mind and getting things off your chest, but that is some really scary dialogue. I've heard near-identical language from convicted rapists and killers. Keep up on your therapy and don't do anything rash, okay?

I've never done a single crime in my life and never plan to. I'm just broken on the inside is all. Depressed doesn't always mean psychopathic...

I guess you can say I want revenge on her but I would never harm her. That would go against what I'm trying to do tbh. I just have kind of an Avril Lavigne skater boy kind of thing going. But that's euphemizing it so I didn't put it in my original post which was meant to be an actual letter.

 

[Dessgeega]

I've never done a single crime in my life and never plan to. I'm just broken on the inside is all.

I guess you can say I want revenge on her but I would never harm her. That would go against what I'm trying to do tbh. I just have kind of an Avril Lavigne skater boy kind of thing going. But that's euphemizing it so I didn't put it in my original post which was meant to be an actual letter.

That's good to hear. It's a cliche, but living well really is the best revenge. Anything beyond that would be disagreeable.

 

[Joasa]

You being happy is torture to me.

I know you're the perfect, flawless version of me. I know you've got everything I want, you're living my dream, you've got tons of friends online, you're gorgeous, you're an amazing artist, you're probably S+99, and everyone who meets you loves and adores you instantly. All those things I dream of having... but I'll never have. And I hate and envy your happiness.

I shouldn't have ever trusted you would help me do anything I wanted or ever touch the edge of my one dream. Someone perfect like you has no time to meddle with the antics of a lifelong loser like me. You simply don't care about me or my feelings or what I'm going through. You never have, even when you were pretending you cared. Not once did I sense and empathy from you even though you listed your own set of problems. But at least you have a million and one great and amazing things going on both in real life and your online life. I have none of that.

I hope you're happy with what you've allowed to happen to me. I regret ever calling you my friend. Part of me wants to apologize due to my envious infatuation with your sheer inhumane perfection but the other half knows the cruel and heartless and empty person you really are.

 

[Laseraxis7]

Spoiler

I'm aware of the things that you've been through, not entirely, because I wasn't there when they happened and I wish I could've helped you, but I can't and there's nothing I can do about it; you probably think that my support and positivity mean nothing to you, but what do I know? I still think that you're a friend in need of support in times like these.

I can't stop thinking about you because I care about you, don't take this the wrong way. I don't want you to spend your days feeling sorry for yourself, it would be great if you just stood up and continue to move on leaving the past behind. However, it's not like that, and it's hard to let go of all the things that hurt you, but I have faith that you'll get through it sooner or later. There's a beakon of hope and I know it!

It's most likely that the people who hurt you won't apologize to you because they're a******s. So don't expect them to come to you, because they won't, it'd be nice if they do though. Nonetheless I know that there're hopes and a future for you, and you will be happy again; I pray for it everyday. There is hope for you.

 

[Dessgeega]

It's feeling increasingly odd the way you two constantly like each other's posts and have conversations with each other in public. You're both dating and living together, wouldn't it be easier and more comfortable to step away from the hardware and do all that face to face?

 

[Flareth]

Y'all got some nerve, saying you've got the best Chinese food in all of Southern California. Don't get me wrong, you've got some good ****, and I know you've gotta have some sort of slogan that'll attract the masses. But Paul's Kitchen remains the absolute best in SoCal, and dare I say the entire United States.

And even if we limit this discussion to trashy hole-in-the-wall take-out Chinese joints, at least I was alive to witness the glory that was Panda Rice. No other place like it has come close, not in all the years since it closed down.

But hey, you're close enough to where I live and you have neither a B rating (like China Wok Express) nor the owner's little brats running around (like Wok Star), so you're still all right in my book. But let's not kid ourselves here.

 

[swamphox]

We've gotten through the first tribulation but I think Ive allowed you to become dysfunctional. I dont know where it came from but I guess the fact that I like it better when youre drinking because you are MORE functional shouldve been a big clue. Not that you drink a lot, just that you behave like a human rather than some snarling hissing badger.

It screams severe case of anxiety but I never see you have a panic attack. Its just general unreasonableness born of the fact that you perceive all your interactions with people as being a slight to them in some way, or you causing them to hate you. you think people are constantly talking negatively about you and conspiring against you this makes you paranoid defensive and quick to get in the first shot. you shower that negativity upon me as if it were a waterfall of self loathing.

you ask for help but only want to start a fight because you dont know how to receive help, you just dig in your heels and get madder and madder. ive figured out that when youre upset you usually dont know exactly what youre upset about either and the subject will constantly change with no connection or consistency.

I cant fix this. I know I cant. Ive asked you to talk to your parents to get their counsel and you refuse but perhaps the fact that I want to talk to your parents will let you know how much I care. I take it one day at a time. its a shame that I view you as someone who needs to be "managed and taken care of". I think sometimes if I wouldve said "no" more, if I wouldnt have communicated via apologizing for everything or asking permission to do things, that maybe our relationship would be more appropriate.

things will improve though. i have faith in you.

 

[Achamo]

It's good to know you've been doing alright. We haven't spoke in so long, and so it indeed feels rather refreshing to speak with you again. We were both really 'immature' back then, but it sure has seem like we've both matured! ♪

It is a shame the "reunite" with your other friend did not turn out as fortunate as it was with us. Some people just change due to their influences, and it usually can, or can't be helped. But at least you tried, yeah?

 

[Joasa]

You know, I don't get why I idolized you so much. But you're just like your drawings. Beautiful, elegant, and poised on the outside, but lacking depth, personality, or diversity on the inside. You're repetitive, you only know how to read off the script and fend for yourself. You don't care about anyone. I can't believe I ever wanted to be your friend because you clearly never wanted to be mine, you just wanted to shut me up. You never tried to help me or listen to my side, but you didn't hesitate to squeal on any bad things I said or did. I poured all r his effort into giving you support and kindness with your problems but you didn't give a damn about mine. And you expected praise when you gave me practically useless tutorials. Like those helped me. I wanted moral support, motivation, and a close friend willing to be by my side as I fought my battle with depression, but all I got was an arrogant, cold idol who sees me as disposable. You just look down at me, don't you. I looked up to you as a friend, a mentor, and an ally and you treated like garbage.

You're a truly empty person. You may succeed at everything I want to be great at but I will always have something you don't- empathy and an overwhelming desire to love others and help those around me, even if I'm far from perfect myself.